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| Happy Twenty Fizzle todizzle
ziekster pest: hi bro happy bday
Bjap10: waddup man happy early b day man..
g-unittttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!-b-dizzle
fo shizzle my nizzle
xtwizzlerzx: happy birthday!!
xtwizzlerzx: *bday kiss*
FynSelena4u: happy birthday ben
INFAMOUS xSM1LEZ: happy bday ben!! – viv
A Mad Steve: you old bastard
RuninDStreets: happy bday flounder
FynSelena4u: hi benny. happy birthday- love you.
HybridWideBdyMR2: Happy bday man
EWW kadeeray: happy buttday!!
i am woori chong: hiye ben~ happy birthday again =]
xoOkoreangelOox: happy bday
AFGALICIA: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN DONG SANG
khaw knee: happy
bithday ben
ohsnapitzRandaLL: yo happy birthday pogi
PrYnCeSs jiNg: Happy Birthday Ben!!!! May all your wishes
come true!!!!
iTZ ASHiE XD: HAPPY B.DAY BEN!!!! YEY! NOW YOU CAN TAKE ME
TO D&B! HAHAHA
Iblue x princess: happy birthday bro<3 yay ur
24!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha hope all ur
dreams and wishes come true *bear huggggggg*
today was pretty cool woke up feeling like an old man got to work
my cubicle was done up all birthday-like with streamers and balloons my
boss kelvin hands me an iPOD nano, jeffrey grace and jack got me
a philips slim new hi-tech metal silver DVD player last night, Val
bought me Bvlgari Aqua cologne, and my team at work got me $400 !!!!!!
BEST BUY gift card !!!! and towards the end of the day i got a big ass
cake, italian food catered and delivered and Rico big boss boss gave me
$100 cash... thanks guys, i do thank the LORD for wonderful friends and
family
take care guyz have a safe weekend
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| 7.15.05 
Your #1 Love Type: INFJ
The Protector
In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship.
For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls.
Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in.
However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself.
Best matches: ENTP and ENFP
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| "d r a m a" can suck on my ballz like a lollipop
part I 7/12/05
there used to be a time where i can proudly tell my homegirls/ girls i
have interest in i have someone dear to me who i can "trust" with a
million dollars in a room and my naked gf for a week and when id come
back he wouldnt touch either, even if my girl.. but its like damn yo...
i cant honestly say i can think say this to someone and mean it... just
something so simple as a girl whether u have interest in them or not
can get in between the best of friends... years of friendship ruined
over the "unspoken rule" and "principle" ... but i mean its all good
now im glad we were able to talk it out and "true friends" can squash
shit like that well at least were supposed to be able to. im the type
of person that gets over shit in like 5 minutes gimme ur word and ill
give u the benefit of a doubt cause thats just me...the bottom line is
im really "trusting" , i just hate being lied to when im told one thing
by 2 different parties but others see something i shouldve seen but
like i said id give the benefit of a doubt... but iono it just felt
weird how actions spoke louder than words and i noticed the difference
in patterns ..etc whatever but yeah, i guess like 2pacs song "i
aint mad at cha" and im not " we was once to niggaz of the same kind
quick to holla at a hoochie with the same line" ........ i aint mad at
cha..... and im not homie, its all gravy...
remember all the shit we've been through, u were one of the first
guys i met in middleschool when i moved here from san diego.. u had the
goofy korean long bangs high fade split 50/50 hair parted in the middle
with the vans and baggy jeans... i came g-ed up to the core and i
wonder if you still remember the time i got hit up on my first day
cause in 7th grade i came blued up to ur school with the dickies
top/ dickies bottom and BK kicks with my bald ass head and one
"bang"... hahaha those were the days remember when u got in that
party crew AFS and u had the flat top with bangs and we used to tag
along with my older/ shorter bro while he used to bang all over
LA... remember when he got locked up i used to get dropped off by my
moms to ur pad... when me you jay your bro max eddie and the others
would all chip in $1 and just buy a bunch of Mc Donald's fries *og
fries with tbe beef flavor* and all pour it in one bag, remember on
June 23rd 2005, when i grabbed you off that lawn chair with ur light
grey ben davis wearing high socks ass kid and we both got jumped in at
the same time... "sworn bros" man i couldnt sleep that night still
remember looking at the mirror seeing the cortez markings on my
forehead and all over my back... damn playa we've been through alot
remember in 9th grade when we "traded" gf's hahah cause i got sick of
mines and u got sick of urs... fuck homie we used to just bump that
2pac and south central cartel shit in ur room... my fav song of that
year was INC RIDE by Masta Ace Inc and urz was I GOT 5 ON IT by
Luniz... i still remember every weekend how i would sleep over
from friday to sunday at ur pad and while my poor parents we're
thinking we'd be sleeping we'd actually be out causing havoc and
mischief all over the streets of glendale.. we were "sitting ducks"
with our fucking swap meet gear hahaha i used to get paid $10 a week to
feed my neighbors dog plus id get $20 a week from my parents + lunch
money, i was a big baller back then with that $30 in my pocket
back in 1995-1996.. haha i used to have the expensive pager too the
memo express that scrolled from left to right... damn bro ill continue
this shit in a few but i love u homie... noone could replace u we got
through more shit than this so no worries
part II 7/14/05
theres more.... why do i get fucked over by ppl so close and dear to
me? well anyway my "best friend" and I had a talk on Tuesday
and it came from his mouth that we should BOTH NOT TALK TO subject A anymore...
but... we had our lil emotional moment and i found it in my heart to forgive
him... like i said the whole introducing ur friends to another group and they
hang out more than you do but THEY END UP LYING to you about that shit and
denying alot of stuff... which yeah emotions and feelings take over but when u
kinda liked someone before and ur best friend knows about it i mean thats kinda
"gray area" or like the unspoken rule but in this case u introduce
then it seems like they get super duper close u feel that ur friend shoulda
stayed away but no it keeps on going then all 3 of you guys have a talk and the
2 others say "nothings going on"... so u give ur benefit of a
doubt then they start fucking acting weird especially my homie iono if its
guilt or feelings but fuck iono what the fuck it is... anyway so like i said on
TUESDAY WE HAD THAT TALK then on WEDNESDAY HIS PHONE IS OFF THEN TODAY I FOUND
OUT THEY KICKED IT.... hahaha i mean i forgave the first time but now im kinda
upset i mean like what happened about that emotional talk of how we had almost
15 years of friendship to just throw down the drain... and no its not cause im
JEALOUS its the fucking principle of the matter.... be another homie but not my
best friend... this PAIN makes u want to fall on ur knees and break because HE
HAS dissapeared in the past with girls, times i needed my best friend i couldnt
get a hold of him and i would like take in alot of pain... yeah venting out on
the internet is gay but who cares i know the internet wouldnt do me wrong the
reason why i got more sour so im like fine... u heard from her again whicih the
words got twisted again and acted up that rather than speaking to me and
clarifying my side and hearing it... but what hurts me is i was a lil
upset but down to squash it but bro u come at me with this I HAVE TO DO MY OWN
THING FOR NOW ON... WHO ARE U LIKE EMINEM IN 8 MILE and DONT USE THAT EXCUSE OF
YOU WANT TO BE CLOSER TO GOD CAUSE its been said too many times…anyway i guess
why im pretty hurt that someone wants to do their own thing you 2 quit denying
ur fucking feelings for each other and just get with each other... ok who the
fuck is ben anymore
part III 7/15/05
damn this shit is going on forever well my homie and i finally talked
it out last week sometime towards the end but i guess he's still kinda
beating around the bush with the subject... i know he prolly likes her
cause i heard that she likes him from what he told me and etc... im not
that dumb nor am i blind but oh well i mean im kinda over it now just
realizing how selfish ppl can be to achieve their own temporary
happiness....
part IV 7/16-7/17
went to Kelvin my boss bday with aurora and her friend .. first
drove aurora to do a photoshoot with mike shin for some pretty clean
jdm conversion integra... that was overwhelming so my moms car at
2:45pm went from san gabriel to northridge then northridge to glendale
then back to san gabriel then off to orange then irvine then whittier
then san gabriel and got home at 4:30am..anyway i had fun open bar i
was dancing cwalking haha pretty buzzed, these 2 girls were like
getting jocked left and right, ppl who didnt really talk to me in the
past were being more friendly... haha it was fun though just had a good
time and "that moment" like totally made me smile for the first time
since ive been drama surrounded for the past month or so so that moment
just made everyhing change... thanks God for everything i know you
wouldnt be giving me hardships that i cannot endure i know i have to be
strong keep my head up and just keep an open eye next time not to be
blinded by friendship, and cute faces.... thanks for that sweet
"moment" ... love you for that.. thanks God
7/18/05
part V
thanks for coming clean homie, sam and i talked about this shit and we all good now... i love u homie... aiite peace outties
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im really happy cause aurora wrote a pretty "touching" entry about me
on her Thursday June 30th xangay log... we gotten pretty close even
though we've known each other for like a couple of years im glad there
are still folks out there like her really chill etc... homegirls really
easy going and we share alot of the same views, interests but yeah iono
just alot has been on my mind for the past few weeks with work, life at
home/ my other irvine home/ thnking about schoolin', the team, selling
the supra, modding my car before Nisei showoff carshow etc... and its
nice to vent and hang out with positive company thanks for being there
for me buddy, take care God bless when u go to china and stuff and know
im always here for ur butt
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